time in need...

salam,

have you ever heard of the saying 'a friend in need is a friend indeed'? i have. a lot of times before, but somehow now i feel maybe i would like to change the idiom... maybe to something like this...

" a mom in need is a mom indeed, so goes for dad...'

i know it sounds lame but i can't help but wishing for it to be so. nowadays we're always faced with the most difficult problems but none is willing to end a helping hand... even parents... parents know best, yeah like that's ever true now... whenever i have a problem somehow i feel like they're not even there for me... they don't even spare a glance to even take notice of the wierd changes of my behavier. i would pretty much appriciate it if they did but the reality was much cruler then it sounds. it even reach the part where you would find yourself choosing between life and death. suacide.

i'm not thinking of killing myself but this is what i feel like whenever my perents are not there to support me through the rough times, and i wished they did.

i really wish you were there whenever i reach out for you...

His story

salams,

I thought I have missed something in life. The on that I’ve been searching for but couldn’t seem to grab hold of for 16 years. At first, I thought that maybe I was unlucky or maybe I didn’t search hard enough, but later today I found or more yet remembered that that one special thing can only be found in one certain special place and I forgot that… well, only for 16 years.

It’s true when a person said that this world is made up of different people. They were telling no lie. Of course everyone knows what is the obvious but I’m not pointing at the obvious. This may seem a little childish but more the less it’s true. In this world there exist homo sapiens that have absolutely the same characteristics as the other though a few might be a little disabled but never the less they are the same. These beings also carry different hearts, though they generally are a lump of cells and tissues but they are the personalities of these beings.

In theory maybe that is what we’ve all learnt and from there comes a saying that an action or a choice made determines the future that one would encounter, the present is the result of one’s past but what about the past? Maybe the past is your mistake? The past is only history?

One must forget the past and move on with his life. Yes, indeed that is true but only one statement in this that the others forgot to transmit is to forget the painful past and learn from it while remember the glory and aim for it. In my previous search that is what I note. Many are aware of this but none are to actually take in consideration of this whether they are in their conscious or not.

This maybe impossible to understand but yeah, it is life…

something...

salam...

hope is a dram of an awaken man... i've stumbled upon this... how do you ay it... God's sayings... telling me that if you are willing to do so then you should put all your trust ti Him...
after you have worked hard that is... but even so i fell that it is hopeless... but sometimes it's not... the person and i have been going through the same thingsover and over again wether destiny was just playing with my heart or it's just plain luck an a coincedence...
though i would defenately believe in destiny... but it is giving me hope... it's not that i don't like it bt it feels like i'm only hiping on false hope...

a dream that i myself am not sure if i could or even fit to do such a thing in life... or even TO life. it's frusterating... and not understanable... yeah i know... but if i were to tell you (as readers) would not be able to understand anyways...

so... for those who might get the hint... then i hope you would support me~

days of sadness...

salams...

it's not that i'm always sad but today seems to be a sad day not only for me but for my friends too. we had our exam today, it was additional math and i believe that i'm going to flunk anyways bacause i did really bad... but my friends even cried as they weren't able to answer the uestions...
i feel somawhat sad for them...
i can't really study today too sad to even thnk about it.. but life must go on...
sigh. i think it woulf=d be good if i study rught now... tought i doubt it would stick in my mind as the over flowing feeling of diapleasure dominating my sanity, but i'm willing to try harder.. i hope i will....
we'll be having our biology exam tomorrow... wish us luck!

my day today...

salam,

hehehe, beforwe start i wasn't the one asking the question but whom ever is reading (though I doubt anyone would be) can answer the question.

today, i mostly killed time by being deep in my thoughts. i felt really sad today, i don't know how to explain but i couln'd focus on anything my mind was absorbed in my thoughts 100%. i know it doesn't make sence i don't make sense most of the time. i think i kind of like it that way anyways. i had a lot to do then in the end the doctor said bacause of stress i fell sick and had to skip the rest of school. i'm still recovering but still it sadens me to think of how things aren't working out.

plus i also miss this one person. i have forgoten about that person for just a bit but i just can't get myself to NOT remeber the person. when i was very ill the person came in my mind a lot i don't have any explaination to this as i myself felt confused with the suddden memory. i'm really confused and fragile right now and i hope i can satle things just fine.

i feel better now. thank you for reading. :)

scared

salams,
haha. hmm. i shouldn't laugh but i just couldn't help myself. well if you don't understand the given passage let me help you...

it means: somebody help me.. i don't want to be alone i'm scared

twitted at night, so it's wierd how this is actually happening. hmm. haha. all this while i've been scared to go to sleep but in the end this person i more terrified then me... it just makes me feel better. my senior being scared of being alone. thare's always a reason.
i tink i'm not scared to go to sleep noe~
goood nightttttt~:)

something about something :)

salams,

hey nice to write again. at keast i think it's nice, no don't get me wrong i'm perfectly not confused.

haha... today like in most blogs i would tell you about why i've stopped writting for quite a while listen... i mean read and read carefully...

the reason's why i didn't update frequebtly before:-

1. my life is boring.




2. i'm boring.




3. i'm bored.




4. both my life and me are boring.




5. what else do you want?! 4 is enough!




6. huh... 6th is bacause i'm lazy. (good enough?!

well there yo have it... now you get me that's why i don't tell people why i don't update...

then today something happened that made me feel at home... i lked it... hmm... i just hope it'll last.

at least just a little bit longer...